So far, it's been very nice. My mom, stepdad, and I went up to a state park that John and I loved; we walked around and spent some time just looking out at the ocean. John came with us, in ashes form. Then we went to a gallery in a nearby that John and I had been in many times. Every time we'd gone, we'd debated buying something but could never quite make up our minds what to get. This time, I made my decision and bought a sequence of prints depicting the same tree during each of the four seasons. It seemed to be a fitting representation of the passing of one year since John's death. The artist signed and dated the back, itself a small tribute to this day.
Then we went out for lobster. John came along for that, too.
Now we're home, mom's cooking dinner, my stepdad is doing some chores around the house. We're about to go get the twins. The evening holds a Sox/Yankees game on TV. John wasn't a baseball fan, but he would have indulged me.
Thank you, internets, for all you've done for me in this past year and all that you did for me during John's illness. You can't begin to understand how much blogging has brought to my life. I certainly never would have imagined it. John must be happy indeed to know how loved Maddie, Riley, and I are. Thank you.
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so glad you have had a gentle day. Take care.
That sounds like a beautiful print. Have a good evening.
Thinking of you, the kids, and John.
Thinking of you and your family today - hope it's a peaceful one.
Thinking of you.
crappy anniversary.
yes, you are loved.
De-lurking (after exactly 1 year) to say how glad I am that you are having a nice day. I think you are an amazing person. I honestly don't know how you do it!
Sounds like a beautiful and meaningful piece of art you got!
and thanks for sharing yourself and your life with those of us here on the interwebs. I'll certainly be thinking of you and the twins a lot today and throughout the weekend. I hope it continues well - and the print sounds beautifully perfect.
Much love.
I too am thinking of you and your family today. The pictures sound beautiful and sound like the perfect choice to mark your year.
*hugs, Snick*
Sending you and yours light and love today.
Thinking of you and your family today. Take care.
Janet
Hi. I'm delurking to tell you I'm thinking about you and your family today. I love your blog and it's started to be the first one I read. Thanks for sharing your journey with me. Take care.
Holding you and the twins in my thoughts. Take care, dear...
xo
Flicka
I'm glad that you had (and will continue to have) a good day. I know how hard these anniversaries can be.
Thinking of you and your lovely children.
The tree of life. Just right for a resting goose.
It sounds like a perfect way to spend this day. I'm glad you were able to spend one more day with your Goose. And the trees sound like a wonderful piece of art.
I don't know how you have done it, but I follow your blog every once in a while. You really deserve a pat on the back, and much more. you are truely amazing. So young, so hard working and so dedicated to continue to make your husband happy. You can be certain of that.. he is really proud of what you have accomplished thus far.
hugs.
Delurking to say you and your family have been in my thoughts all day today. Your day sounds very peaceful, and the prints perfect.
with love to you all .I like Jungs word 'synchronicity-meaningful coincidences in time' the prints sound just that and just right !
Also de-lurking for the first time to tell you I'm thinking about you today. But also that I was doing so yesterday, and will be tomorrow also. Today is an important day, yes, but the strength you have shown - and the strength I know you will continue to show - will sustain you. As will all of us. Peace, and be well.
One of the first thoughts that entered my mind this morning was you and the twins. I remembered at the beginning of the month that the anniversary was quickly approaching. I'm so happy to hear you had an enjoyable day....well, as enjoyable as it could be. My thoughts and prayers have been with you all year, but especially today. Hard to believe it's been one year already. *sigh*
You're all in my thoughts today.
I am a lurker - I followed your story last year. I haven't been back in several months but thought of you today. I had thought you lost your dear hubbie in April - but hadn't realized it was today, April 11.
Thinking of you - you have done so well with your little ones, and deserve a huge hug.
Love the idea of the prints - I have always wanted to get that series because that circle of life amazes me
{{{{{Hugs}}}}. I am thinking of you. It sounds like you spent this day in the perfect way.
So glad your day is going peaceful and my thoughts are with you and the twins.
The day indeed sounds perfect so far. I am glad you stumbled onto the prints-- a very serendipitous thing, and so right on for you.
thinking of you today, and wishing you a peaceful heart.
You've been on my mind all day today. Glad that is has been a serene day. You continue to amaze me with your strength.
Sounds like a wonderful day. I think the print sounds perfect.
What state park did you go to?? We're always looking for places to go. You can email me if you don't want to get that specific here.
klg221 at gmail.com
Thinking of you all today.
You may not think you give that love back, but you do. I've been thinking of you all day (I wrote you on Yahoo this morning but I'm not sure if you check that one as much as gmail) and hoping you were having a peaceful day of remembrance.
In my blessedly limited experience with grief from losing my mom, the first year's anniversary is the very worst..sometimes that day (or the day after) can be worse than days before. Please be gentle with yourself.
We all love you =)
How beautiful and fitting. I'm a new reader, but I've been moved by your story and your resilience and determination to raise your babies and remember your husband and live your life day by day.
The prints really do sound beautiful and it's so nice that John was with you, in a sense.
The prints sound lovely, and your day seems to have been everything you wanted/needed it to be (at least I hope it was). I read you regularly and think of you and the twins often. You were most certainly in my thoughts and heart today, but you are there often, no matter what the day.
*kier*
Hugs for all of you.
We love you, Snick, and so does John.
I'm glad you have your family with you and were able to find some peace today.
S -
Thinking of you today.
thinking of you
Thinking of you and Maddie and Riley today...
Your day sounds about as perfect as it could be, and the print sounds gorgeous. I hope it makes you feel good whenever you look at it.
Go Sox!
thinking of you - get lots of hugs from the twins. take care.
I'm so glad you have so much love around you and the kids on this day. We're thinking about you, too.
Hi there,
I am a lurker of your blog (hope you don't mind) and wanted to say I have been thinking of you and the kids, and of course John too.
Thank you for sharing all that you do.
Karen
What a beautiful way to share the day with the love of your life.
I feel so very grateful that you decided to share John, Mads, and Ri-Man with us.
Buddha said to tell the twins that he'll share when we all meet.
I love the fact you bought the prints. Perfect. And signed on this date.
You are an amazing woman Snick.
Sounds like a day spent in a very nice way. Thinking of you lots.
It sounds like a wonderful day. The ocean, your meaningful purchase and even a Sox-Yankees game.
Thinking of all of you today.
The picture sounds beautiful. I'm glad you were surrounded by people who love you on what must have been a difficult day.
I think I first stumbled upon your blog right around a year ago. . .
Thinking of you, your babies and your husband.
Many many blessings to you and your loves.
The symbolism of the tree print series is beautiful. That was a perfect way to mark the day and many years in the future you may want to give R. and M. a print each, keeping the other two for you and John.
The way you spent today sounds beautiful. I'm so glad it has been peaceful for you. I"ve been thinking of you today.
I've been thinking about you today.
I'm glad it was peaceful and exactly what you wanted to do.
I'm thinking of you, John, and your kids today. Much love to you all. Peace be with you.
Thinking of you today and every day.
ditto to what heather said -- thinking of you today and every day. congrats on your art purchase -- i love those kinds of pieces.
Thinking of you!
said a quick prayer for all of you today.
What a nice tribute. Thinking of you all today.
What a wonderful and meaningful tribute to John!
Hugs to you and the twins. So glad that you found the tree prints to mark this one year anniversary. I hope that with each passing season, you'll find continued comfort in your life.
Snick - Thought about you all day on John's anniversary. You truly did many spectacular "somethings". Very glad you had time to wander places of beauty and meaning with John in spirit (as always) and in ashes (v. sweet). The tree prints sound perfect, poignant. Your spirit and survival skills are remarkable. Hope the rest of the weekend is peaceful and relaxing. Thinking of you all.
Thinking of you and hope that you will continue to have peaceful days. Thanks for sharing this past year, it's been tough for you and the twins but in some small way I hope that you have also found comfort from your friends in the computer. I've been following this blog for just over a year, was introduced to you via So Close (Tertia).
I wish you happiness.
Regards, from Karen, Cape Town South Africa
I thought about you a lot today, and I think it is remarkable how you have come through this year. I realize you haven't had much choice but to put one foot in front of the other and do it, but you've done it with honesty and grace in the ups and downs.
I love that John was with you today and that you found a selection at a gallery where you'd both been which seems so reflective of your past and present seasons of change.
(((hugs)))
What a perfect way to honor today's meaning. I was thinking about you yesterday and wondering how things were going. Not that I knew your hubs but I am sure that is exactly how he would have wanted you to spend today. LOVE that you bought those pictures. Very symbolic. HUGS!!
Lovely man, lovely tribute, lovely you.
It does sound like a very nice day of tribute and company... *hugs*
Thinking of you and your family and wish you peace. Thank you for sharing a part of your life with us.
Another lurker delurks herself to say how often I check in, how often I enjoy reading of your twins, and honestly how often I think how can I be proud of someone I have never met and yet I am, over and over again. You inspire.
What a lovely tribute your day was.
I think those prints are perfect. I'm thinking of you especially much these days.
My thoughts are with you.
What a wonderful way to spend the day. The artwork sounds lovely.
- A
Thinking of you.
Thinking of you and the twins. The artwork sounds like a wonderful way to honor John.
Glad to hear you honored him in ways that were important to you. I was thinking of you and your family a lot yesterday...
What a lovely day. The tree prints are the most perfect things ever. I can picture them now.
It is the 12th now. You made it. One year. You are right. There are so many of us who hold you three in our thoughts (and appreciate the fact that we are in yours!)
Hi delurking(for a while now) and I just wanted to say that I was thinking of you, John and the twins today. It sounds like you had a lovely day.
thinking of you all, all day.
take care of yourself.
we're all here with you.
take care.
t
I've been thinking of you and the twins this week. warm blessings to the three of you, and to John.
God Bless you today and always.
You and the twins are in my thoughts.
Thinking of you.
Take care
Thought of you on Friday while far from my computer. I'm glad you had a peaceful day. You are indeed loved - all of you!
It is true indeed, we do love you and your little critters. Thanks for sharing your life with us and always adding your unique humour even in the darkest of times.
I am so glad that you had a peaceful day on the anniversary of such a tragic loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Can't believe it's been a year. I remember reading your blog the day you posted he was gone and going into the bathroom at work and crying my eyes out. Please have a good night and know many are thinking of you.
I've been thinking of you all this weekend. (And trying not to begrudge you a Red Sox victory.)
I'm so glad the day was so special and meaningful and you were with your Mom and Stepdad. Sending you hugs.
Snick,
First, Gasp, one year. And what a year you've had. You are so brave and wonderful. John must be so proud of you
It sounds as if you had a beautiful day. I'm so glad.
love and hugs to you and the babes.
Cathy
usually winecat but I wanted my name on this one.
time passes so quickly
Dear Snick,
Thanks for sharing with us. Wish I could give you a hug.
Thinking of you, and John, and hoping that the memories of him bring you all peace and happiness--he sounds like he was a wonderful, wonderful man.
Was thinking of you on Friday, glad that it was a good day with the support of family. Here's to hoping that the turning of the year brings you closer to the point of being able to think of John and only feeling happy, never sad.
Much love to you and the twins.
Glad to hear it was a meaningful day. Keep on keepin on.
you're an inspiration, Snick. Much love to you, John, Maddie & Riley.
You were thought of this weekend. Love to the Snick family.
Wow. I am so glad that you got to have a fabulous day. I am sure John helped out with that. He was with you. And I'm sure it feels at least a little good knowing that you made it. You made it 1 full year.
I've been thinking of you.
I know it's not the tone of the overall comments, but it really made me smile to picture you carrying John with you all day. Something in that is really cool as well as really quirky.
Did I ever tell you that when they gave us Mom back, they'd wrapped her in some horrible floral wrapping paper. It was like getting a birthday brick. Weird.
'Always thinking of you and yours, Snick. Thank you for sharing your story--stories--with all of us.
I've been away from the blog (house move, new job etc etc) but you have been in my thoughts and prayers as the anniversary came up...
We, your blog friends, are privileged to travel with you however remotely and we're here cheering you on as another year begins.
Blessings
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