As of today, I'm counting Weight Watchers points again. I'm just not happy with the way I feel, and for whatever reason, this was the morning that I said, "I've had it, enough, I'm going to take control of this situation."
For those of you familiar with the WW system, I went to the store at lunchtime and bought the fixings for vegetable soup (no points!), some 2-point organic yogurts, and some microwave popcorn. I just had an afternoon snack, which put me at 13 points so far today, so I have about 7 points left for dinner. Not bad.
I had great success with WW in 2003/4, and I'm hoping that it will work for me again. I think part of the reason I did so well with it last time was that I exercised 5-6 days a week at that time. I'm trying to keep up with the running, but since the race my motivation has been low and I've had a hard time getting out there. I was hoping to go running after work today, but my jog stroller is trapped in my garage behind the lumber needed to finish my deck project, so I think I'll take the twins to the park instead and at least enjoy the gorgeous weather.
This time around, I'm too cheap to pay to go to WW meetings, so I'm going to try to do this on my own. We'll see. The weekly weigh-ins were a big motivator for me, and I actually don't own a scale and might need to get one. I can gauge my weight fairly accurately by the fit of my clothes, but I think being able to see the number go down before I notice the fit of my pants will be important to me this time around. Based on the physical I had a few weeks ago, I'd like to drop about 15 pounds.
I don't like owning a scale. If I still belonged to a gym, I wouldn't bother and I'd just weigh myself there, but no dice right now. I don't want the kids to see me on and off the scale or hear me talk about dieting. I think I'll just keep the scale in my closet and bust it out once a week for my weigh-ins. With the twins still so little, I focus on offering them good, healthy food, eating well in front of them, and only letting them have sweets on special occasions (at a party, for example). I want them to have a good relationship with food and their bodies. I hope I can model that behavior for them.