21 May 2009

Crazy Like a Fox

Last week, I was riding the high of having been laid off within days of having been offered my dream job. The beauty of that karma was stunning. "I'll have so much time to pack!" I thought. "I'll be able to relax, see friends, not stress out. This will be the best moving experience ever!"

I'm not saying that it's not the best moving experience ever. I am pretty relaxed. But I was more than a little INSANE to think that I'd have time to lie around and eat bon-bons between putting things in boxes. Oh, and yeah: I thought I'd be blogging every day. Ha! No! Instead, it's all moving, all the time. For example, who knew that getting a permit for my POD container would be a ten-step process involving three trips to Town Hall, numerous phone calls, and a visit to the police department? Not I! Who knows what my moving company means by "more furniture pads than you think you could possibly need?" Again: not I! (Seriously—anyone got a number for me?)

This week has been nonstop, but I'm starting to feel like it will all happen. My POD is booked and permited (pending the last stop for police sign-off). The movers are hired to load the POD. I've started looking for housing and child care in Portland, or at least putting out feelers. My (unsold, sigh) condo is 90% packed, and I'd say about 50% of my stuff has been moved from CV's back to the condo to be loaded into the POD. (About the POD: I really appreciated all the moving suggestions. I was very excited to use ABF U-Pack—so cheap!—but I couldn't get permission to have that huge truck parked on my busy, narrow residential street, alas. Seems like a great service, though.) I am making plans for going away parties on a kid-friendly and grown-up level.

And I have made plans to see some friends. The experience of seeing friends to say goodbye before I move reminds me of the intense weeks leading up to John's death. Once we knew that the end was near, we felt pressured to see everyone, do everything, be everywhere. At the same time, we felt like closing ourselves off and avoiding everyone and everything, because every goodbye was like opening the wound and facing the reality that John was really going to be gone, and soon. While not nearly so dramatic considering that I will still be alive and that I'm leaving Boston for a good reason and that my friends will visit and all that, there's still a painful element to these "final" meetings with friends. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm leaving a place that I lived for ten years, the place that I met John, the place that I built my career, the place my kids were born, a place that's filled with some of my best friends.

You'd think that bumbling through my days—dealing with logistics, putting things in boxes, making plans—would make the move seem very real. And they do. But they make the good things about the move seem real. While I pack, I think of living near my parents, of what I'll wear to my new job, of what our new house will be like. I'm excited about those things. But seeing friends and wondering when I'll get to see them again, that makes the move seem real on the flip side. That forces me to think of what I'm leaving behind, which is hard. This is what is known as bittersweet, right? I've always been a milk chocolate kind of girl.

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Dealing with months of unsorted and unposted photos is on my to-do list, and when I get to that, I'll post some pics of Florida. But for now, I leave you with a funny quote from Riley, who said, upon seeing his reflection in the mirror of our Tampa hotel room: "HEY! I know that guy!"

Heh heh. You sure do!

30 comments:

Anonymous said...

What? No comment on Idol? Or are you just pretending it didn't happen? :)

OTRgirl said...

I so relate to what you say about the bittersweet in the goodbye and packing phase. I like to organize things, so the packing and sorting is actually fun for me. I love exploring new people and places, love open possibilities, so I like anticipating where we'll be next, but it's hard to say goodbye.

Losing a hairdresser, mechanic, spice store, doctor... sigh. Of course you're going to a place where you know many of those sources already. That's pretty cool.

Watercolor said...

Excellent! Use small boxes. So you can move them around yourself. They get heavy fast. :)

Single Parent Dad said...

Keep focusing on the positive Snick, you know it's the right thing even though it won't be easy.

Riley is a hoot, and I'm off to google POD.

Take care.

Sab said...

Snick - I must say I am envious of your fresh start! I'm stuck in an enormous rut of post-divorce self-imposed funk! I know only I can make things happen for me and the kiddo! You continue to inspire me with your courage and your honesty. I wish you the very best and cannot wait to see what Oregon brings for all of you - the good friends will always be there for you no matter where you land!

SmileyGirl said...

Woo hoo for you - glad to hear you are on your way. I'm sure the goodbyes will be hard but like you said you have so many great things to look forward to. Your family will be such a support system for you and the kiddos and they will appreciate it too. Enjoy the time you have in Boston!

Carolina Girl said...

I love the Riley comment. Best of luck. Can't wait to hear how it goes in Oregon.

kathleen999 said...

Wondering how your housemate is coping with the change of plans?

Very glad for you and I hope it all goes very smoothly. Portland seems like a really nice city. We watched something on PBS last night that was talking about what a great town it is.

Jess said...

ABF doesn't require that you have a big truck parked on your street - they can also drop off a parking-space sized container, similar to what the PODs folks do, I think. Not that its helpful now...but others reading might want the info. :) The "relocubes" may not be a great option for a house-sized move though.

Its so exciting to read about your impending move...I'm really psyched for y'all!

tanyarenfro said...

I am a Military wife so I have moved across country alot! The pads are for everything that does not go into a box. All of your big furniture,tvs,tables all of the big stuff gets cover in the furniture pads you will need alot of them. Also there are these giant rubberbands you can get the hold the pads on and that keep you draws,glass doors closed. They are great to use. Hope this helps. Good luck on your new adventure!

Rev Dr Mom said...

Does Reed have an on campus day care? When I moved to VT when the Kid was 2 being able to get him in on campus was a lifesaver, and campus day cares are generally very high quality.

Good luck with the move!

Julia said...

You are just rocking this organized thing, aren't you? When's the big day? Hope to see you before then.

Bert Bell said...

Keep focusing on the blessings God has given you with the job and all. Keep looking for Him in every moment and everything else will work itself out...promise. God heard your cries of sorrow and worry and has given you this opportunity for a fresh start with your family to help you. Turn on some good praise & worship music and dance in your underwear while you are packing...thanking God for His awesome provision.

erin said...

Enjoy it as much as you can!

June said...

Okay, Lady! So you're off to a fresh start, new dreams to build! That's fantastic & encouraging. I will miss visiting with you when I come to see my 'girls' & grandson...but I also wish you the very best life could hold. I know your family will be happy to have you closer - and you just can't regret building a new life for yourself & those precious children. God bless you ---- June

Anonymous said...

Maybe we'll get the chance to meet once you're settled in P-town! Best of luck on all the logistics.

Tamar

Fairlington Blade said...

Best of luck with the move. Was hoping to hear an Idol comment. We are an ADAM household, but I'm happy with the way it turned out. He doesn't need the win and I hope he doesn't have to record the treacle tune. [What is it with all the steps, mountains, and hurricanes?] The thing that made it OK was Kris's reaction on winning.

I was hoping for an Adam & Allison finale, but it was a fun season.

Cheers,

Paul

Sadia said...

I love Riley's mirror comment. When my girls were itty bitty, they would get terribly upset at mirrors for not containing a huggable sister. They still can't tell who's who from photographs, at least not consistently.

Mama Mama Quite Contrary said...

I LOVE what Riley said!

Best of luck with all the moving business. I'm so happy for your wonderful opportunity!

Susan said...

Riley, how sweet!! Snick - so happy for you. Definitely a new start. All exciting. However, I get what your saying about leaving as well. It's not goodbye, it's see you later =) And geez, computer and web cam and all that jazz sure make it easier living further away that it use to be. Are the kids getting the idea at all that life is changing? They are still young. Good luck with the finishing ups and meeting with friends. I miss seeing "Giovana" on the blog. I started reading her blog through yours.

Jen said...

Thank you so much for taking a few minutes to give us an update. I love readigng your blog, and I've missed you. So happy things are working out as best they can for you.

Anonymous said...

You'll be leaving the dreadful winters behind! You must be a trooper in the face of those NE winters or you resigned yourself to it. Either way, I think it's worth celebrating!

Staci said...

I just found your blog on How do you do it. I love the things I have read so far. A move is tough, really tough. The good thing is your going back home and hopefully will have family there. Good luck! I can't wait to see how your new life in Portland goes.

Abby said...

You know that having been laid off, you are eligible for unemployment until your date of hire, right? Same thing happened to me in MA--I was laid off, found another job that didn't start right away, and had unemployment in the interim.

Kerry Lynn said...

Wow! I knew you'd be moving at some point.
I'm so happy that you were able to wait until the perfect opportunity fell in you lap.

Christine said...

Cute, Riley. And I'm sad you're leaving while being happy you'll be moving to where you have more support. I'm thinking of you and hoping your move goes smoothly.

liz said...

Congratulations! And, Damn! You're a fine writer.

Portland Reader said...

You might ask your new boss to forward you the list of babysitters/nannies ... Reed does not offer daycare onsite, but there is a professor who oversees an updated list of students who want to nanny/babysit. That same prof could be a good person to talk to about daycare recommendations. SE Portland is notoriously difficult when it comes to nearby care options, but lots of folks have successful nanny shares! Good luck.

Roads said...

New beginnings. Exciting, and a little scary at the same time.

It's good to stretch and fly, and at your next stop you can re-invent yourself a bit -- if you want to.

Happy moving!

Sab said...

Snick - know you are busy - but we can't wait to see what happens next! Good luck on the big move!