The kids and I had a great reunion. They clearly had so much fun, and so did I.
But they cried when I put them to bed. I was up twice with a screaming Ri-Man in the middle of the night. They were up for the day at 4:30 a.m. When I went in in give screaming Madeleine her ducky back at 4:45 a.m., my loving comment as I tossed it in her crib was a hissed, "Shut. Up. It's time for SLEEPING." I promised the kids oatmeal for breakfast only to discover that we were all out. Maddie threw a hissy fit at the table because one of the crackers I gave her was broken in half. I let Riley sit in the front seat of the car while I buckled Maddie in, and he honked the horn by accident, which scared the holy living crap out of him. A brand-new sippy cup of milk leaked all over the back of the freshly-cleaned car on the way to daycare. I was leaving for work at the time that I normally arrive.
Holy Monday, Batman.
I know the kids are just readjusting to being back at home after a weekend out of the normal swing of things. I'm sure their crying last night was at least partly related to the tease of Mama finally coming home only to sling them into their cribs and leave them again until morning. I'm sure the troubles this morning were related to the kids being tired from having gotten up so early, and having gotten up so early because of wanting to see Mama sooner rather than later. I had tried to mentally prepare myself for this kind of night and start to the week, but I still feel drained, the Zen of vacation already slipping from my grasp, my teeth clenched, my eyes drooping.
There's a thread on my moms of twins listserv right now, a flood of responses to an overwhelmed mom of newborn twins, telling her how great she is doing and how it really will get easier. I replied to the thread, but in regards to things getting easier, I have to disagree. Overall, it's not really easier, it's just different. The challenges have changed. I'm trying to wrap my mind around the fact that this is parenting. Easier? Not so much. Different? All the time.