22 April 2011

Spring

Seven years or so ago, no make that eight, it was spring 2003 and John and I had just started dating. We spent a sunny Sunday morning into afternoon into evening at the home of mutual friends, out on their deck, celebrating another friend's PhD, drinking mimosas and then mojitos and then wine, eating an endless array of snacks, enjoying the sun in short sleeves, unwilling to admit that we were actually a little chilly, simply happy and totally carefree.

I remember letting go that day of anything about which I felt even a shred of responsibility. I remember making a decision to just enjoy that day, which is now associated with with a pure definition of happiness for me. It was the kind of day you can't create if you try, a day that just happens and for which you give grateful thanks.

Today could be that day again. The weather is the same as is my willingness to let go of responsibility. But I'm at work, not on a friend's deck, and I have kids to go home to. Maybe we'll go get ice cream or read an extra story; such is the form of joyful abandon of responsibility these days. Oh, how times change, but the simplicity of such happiness stays the same.

8 comments:

NanarocksWeen said...

Stacey,
You REALLY know how to put feelings on paper. I hope you never stop writing. I think a lot about life's complexities - the ups, the downs, the joys, the fears...but I could never express how I'm feeling the way you can. Thanks for sharing.

Peg said...

Great post! A wonderful reminder to live in the moment. I love that that moment for you included John and it translated into special moments with the twins this evening.

Kathy said...

So glad to hear about your joyful moment! Hope you were able to share it with M and R in whatever way it worked out. We miss you!

Anonymous said...

That's a lovely post. Thanks!

Lil'Sis said...

I hear ya sista!!

Tricia said...

Beautiful post.

OTRgirl said...

It's so rare that I let myself do that. It's a good reminder that we CAN decide to just enjoy the moment.

~ Jolene said...

That was well said. Happy to hear you're doing well. I'd love to get back into my blogging but having a hard time staying motivated and the last thing I want to do is get home and sit in front of a computer when I've been doing it for 12 hours that day! Anyway, I hope you did let go and were able to enjoy the day with your kids. :)