GH and I had a discussion last night, the same old discussion we always have. It all boils down to the: Cancer sucks. The discussion takes different forms; it could be my resentment about doing more to care for the babies, GH's annoyance that he never feels great, you name it. But it all gets back to cancer. Stooopid cancer.
I had an aha! moment during this particular discussion, though. When the babies were born, I let my gym membership lapse. I don't really have time to go to the gym, and during the summer is was a moot point since I walked and walked and walked all the time. I certainly get my strength training by hefting two babies around all the time! But I've gone from 5-7 solid cardio workouts a week (pre-pregnancy, I was a runner and during pregnancy I was a walker) to almost none. I think this lack of exercise is catching up to me especially now that I'm at work and I don't even get out for those walks with the babies anymore. Not to mention the fact that I don't eat as well anymore. My fruit and veggie intake is at an all-time low.
I need to come up with ways to ramp up my nutrition and try to get a little more exercise. We have a gym at my office, but with pumping three times a day, I'm already feeling behind on my work and can't really justify spending time working out during the work day. I already get up early with the babies and want to spend that morning time feeding them and getting time with them since I don't see them all day. After work is hard since we start getting the babies ready for bed at 7:00 and I don't get home until 5:30 even if I don't go to the gym. Argh. It's hard, but I do think some workouts would improve my overall mental health. Maybe I can incorporate stretching into my work day at my desk? A pilates video after the twins go to bed?
And on that note, I'm off to eat chocolate cake and watch some football before heading to bed. The exercise regime and healthier eating can always start tomorrow, right?