I'm finally back at the keyboard. I was totally wrong about the wireless access at the hospital--there was none. Although the truth is I probably would not have used it anyway. Too much other stuff to do, like admire the twins!
We've been home now for over 24 hours. I'm still in awe about the whole experience. Hearing them cry for the first time after the c-section, seeing them, holding them, feeding them. It gives a whole new meaning to "love at first sight."
C-section recovery is going remarkably well. I have basically no pain at this point. We actually just got out for our first walk along the bike path near our condo. It felt great to be outside and stretch the legs. Frankly, the worst pain I have right now is in my ass. All the sitting at the hospital and sitting at home to nurse makes for a sore bum!
Speaking of nursing . . . we're all getting the hang of it, but boy is it time-consuming. Worth it, but time-consuming. At least Madeleine and Riley latch on like pros and I've been able to nurse them at the same time. GH calls me his Earth Mother.
GH is amazing with the babies. No surprise there. Madeleine looks just like him, which is so cute. (Riley seems to be his own little man--can't tell at all who he looks like yet.) GH had to go back to work yesterday, which he found very, very hard. He feels bad because he has to work, and he's tired from work and having cancer, so he doesn't get up to help much in the night. Luckily, my mom is here to help me, and I've reassured GH that he shouldn't worry about the fact the he needs to sleep, but knowing that intellectually and accepting it as OK are two very different things.
Having the kids makes me all the more angry that GH has cancer. How long will he know them? How much longer do I get to have him? The twins have made my fear of losing him extremely acute. I don't want to do this without him, any of it. But I'm getting ahead of myself at a time when I very much need to focus on the present.
I'll post more pictures as time allows and hopefully blog more too. I'm certainly not lacking for blog fodder now!